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I have been married to Ryan for 7 years and I love being married to my wonderful husband. I am a religious Christian and I love God. I live in the United States and have lived in China. I love being free and those who sacrifice(d) for my freedoms (not just servicemen and women, but all who work to preserve and teach freedom.) My hobbies include photography, music, ceramics, time with Ryan, and trying new things. I believe in the family and marriage. I love spending time with my family.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

new recipe

tried it and loved it!

Thursday, February 12, 2015


Yeah, I know I haven't been on here in a while.  Sometimes I think, "Oh, I want to blog about that."  But I can't do it because I am not near a computer or I'm not in a position to be able to write.  Sometimes I think, "I'm at the computer.  I should write something.  ... I have no idea what to write.  Guess I'll do something else."
So, you don't get a post.  Well, that is changing "write" now.  I don't feel like I have anything to say and yet so much has happened.  This might just come out as a jumbled rambling of nonsense.  If so, I'm sorry.  Sort of.  Because you have to realize that if it comes out that way then it probably means that I have yet to sort through the happenings in my life as of late and it is a step forward into getting to a cohesive blog post.  I don't even know when I last wrote!  Christmas?  Thanksgiving?  I have much to be grateful for.  Christ has been a great support to me.  I did awesome things in November and December but I don't want to talk about that, really.  It's too far away.  So, on to 2015!

Goal setting?  Yes.  I set a 4 week goal.  It kind of fell apart at 2 weeks, but I did notice an improvement in myself after they didn't really work.  that was cool.  I noticed weakness and strength.  That was cool.  Really I set 2 goals in 2 different domains each so a total of 4 goals.  That is a lot of goals to have.  But I decided I didn't have to be perfect in them.  I just had to work on improving myself.  After all, life isn't about being perfect.  It is about working toward perfection, working toward Christ, working.  Becoming better.
I love that word; becoming.  I feel like to become means I am getting better, I am improving, building up, growing in capability, strength, morality, understanding, goodness, all things good.  I feel like the word "becoming" is a forward and upward motion that happens when one works, or lets something good work in them.  Like the Holy Ghost, or the Spirit of the Lord.
Becoming is something that builds.  It is not something that falls apart.  Not truly.  To become has so much potential, I can't even explain it.  I can't even say all the things that it is and represents to me, but I can say this.  It doesn't go backward.  It doesn't go from being something to falling apart and disintegrating.  It doesn't go from organization to chaos.  Rather than going from beauty to something you would look at with disgust, it increases in beauty.  To become is not something hollow, but rather something full and full of meaning.

So, if you didn't do a great job with your goals, if you didn't accomplish them, if you didn't even set goals this year, don't let it stress you out, but don't give up, either.  Become.  You don't have to be perfect.  Just work on becoming.  Better.  Kinder.  Gooder.
(Yes, "gooder."  To me, in this context, it doesn't mean the same thing as better.)

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Life Is Good. God Is Great. My Husband Loves Me.

Life is Good. God is Great. My husband loves me. So why can I complain? I can't.  I just wanted to write this.  I'm thinking of changing my blog title to these three sentences.  We'll see.
Life is good because ... it just is.  I can't say why.  If I were to say why then I would be here all day writing a 10 page paper on why life is good.  It just is.
God is Great.  In many ways.  He is all powerful, all knowing, perfect, perfectly loves each and all of his children.  He gave His only begotten son to live in this mortal mess so that we, his children, could take hold on the atonement and exercise our faith to become better beings, more like He Is, and do good work.  He is so loving and always there for our support, even in our hardest times when we want to be alone or when we feel like we are alone.  He is there.  Just hold on.

(tangent:  You know, I have friends who think they need all the answers right when they want them.  They think they have to hurry up and choose an answer that fits their schema, when really, they need to be patiently waiting on the Lord, studying his word, asking him, thinking it out, bringing their answers before him, listening with their hearts TO HIM.  Truly listening to him can be hard sometimes.  But it is always worth the sacrifice.  Following him can be hard sometimes, but it is always a better outcome.  Following God and Christ gives us peace and true, lasting happiness in our souls.  And it is strong.  So, if you don't know the answers, or you are confused, just know; that happens sometimes.  We have to figure things out, but we don't have to make hasty decisions.  Rather than following the world, follow God.  Rather than putting your trust in man, trust in God.  Rather than hide your faults and hurts from him, tell them to him and ask him how to get rid of them.  You have to listen to God, and it is not always what we want to hear, but it is important and right and true.  God is constant.  He doesn't lie.  He is perfect.  He loves us, and he loves us perfectly.)

One thing I have learned is this:  Everything God has given us is because he loves us.  Everything God has taken away from us or withheld from us is because he loves us.
Sometimes it is hard, but I kinda know why we have to go through hard things, so I guess I can't really say "I don't know why."

Ryan loves me.  Yes.  I have a good husband.  7 and a half years of marriage has been wonderful.  It has not been perfect.  If you have a perfect marriage, then look closer at it and improve something.  It takes perfect people to have a perfect marriage and all us people are imperfect beings capable of wonderful things.  You know, he is in The Mormon Tabernacle Choir.  It is so wonderful.  It is a beautiful choir.  Mack Wilberg is the director.  He is a genius at it.  I don't know how.  Anyway, it has been a great blessing to us.  Also, Ryan helps me a lot.  He helps around the house.  He is patient when it is hard for me to leave whatever party we are at and go home.  He makes breakfast in the morning and even when I don't come in for it because I'm busy getting ready, he still makes me some.  What an angel of a man.  He listens, he works hard, he teaches good, he serves.  He loves me.  He wants to be a father.  He is faithful to me.  He is faithful to God.  He is just wonderful.  I love that man.  I love you, Ryan Paul Withers!  If you read this blog entry leave a comment and I will know.  (*Is there a devil emoticon face I can insert here?) 

SO.  God is Great.  Ryan Loves Me.  Life is Good. 

Thursday, December 18, 2014


Okay, craziness!  I'm putting this on my blog, but it is really a journal entry.  I just type faster than I write, so... that's that. 
Wonderful Things That Have Happened Lately... (Excluding lots... sorry.)

Scroll down to the world record video I was in if you don't want to read this all. 

Adoption is going along nicely, although we did have a scare that we didn't have our fingerprints/background checks updated, etc...  We hurried and got them re-done and were praying they would go through fast.  Later, our new case worker got our background stuff from our other agency and tells us, "Oh, you're okay.  These are good for 18 months (instead of 12.)"  Things are still on track.  :)   God is good and loving.  One of our friends gave us a little outfit with a ducky toy and it is adorable!  Finally, going down the baby isle in the grocery store is not awkward or obnoxious...! 

Wonderful Things:  The Sesame Street Muppets and Mormon Tabernacle Choir
I got to go see the Sesame Street Muppets perform with the Mormon Tabernacle Choir for their Christmas Concert!  It was awesome!!!  At first, I was just sitting by myself on practically the back row.  Then this other lady came and sat by me and we just had a marvelous time because we both appreciated it and appreciated that our neighbor appreciated it, so we were concert buddies.  She works at the costume shop of a local University.  Thanks, concert buddy!  You made the show so much more enjoyable.
I felt like I was five years old, again as I sang with Elmo, I laughed at Big Bird's funny jokes, and Ernie being silly while Bert didn't get it.  I watched Cookie Monster beg, plead, and go crazy for cookies, finally eating the headset mic.  and Grover had to open Cookie's mouth to cue the choir loft.  Rosita and another one who I don't know sang a trio with a lady from the choir.  And the count was there!!    He counted the 12 days of Christmas and Richard Elliot played the organ while Count did this.  It was magnificent.  Truly magnificent.  I am serious.  It was the best rendition of the 12 days of Christmas I have ever heard because there was not the annoying repetition and there were a whole bunch of other songs played in it.  It was just so fun, and then,... AND THEN  The Count Did His Lightning and Thunder!!!!  In the Conference Center!!!!!!!!!!!!  I WAS THERE!!!!!!!!  In real life for the lightning and thunder that I could only dream about and imagine as a child. 
It was wonderful and I almost forgot, Santino Fontana was the other guest artist and now some of the songs he sang are my new favorites: Candy Man (Which he sang as he came down from the ceiling in a hot air balloon!!)  and some other Christmas songs in a medley: Blue Christmas, It actually sounded nice.  And all of it was just so fun!  Then my inlaws came down to sleep over and go to the concert.  Then on Sunday, I got to go again with some of them to the "mini" concert and Music and The Spoken Word.  It was wonderful.  Except I was pretty sick on Sunday and had a coughing fit during the broadcast.  I really hope they didn't get my sounds on the recording!  But if they did, I'm sure they recorded the rehearsal and will "fix it in post..." haha. 
Lucky Ryan, he got to sing with all those muppets!  Sing, Sing a Song.  A Clarinetist is a person in your neighborhood.  In your neighborhood....
My little niece came with her parents and my sister and it was so fun we just talked and talked and talked and talked afterward.  I also saw my music and art teacher from elementary school.  She said I need to audition for the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.  I hope one day I can.  Anyway, It was short lived, but it was so fun to see her. 

Health:  We are blessed to be healthy.  Except, we (I) have an awful inclination to give in when offered sugary treats.  Happy Christmas!  Also, I was sick over the weekend and it was nasty!  It was "Just a cold" but it was terrible.  I mean, really, really bad.  Then today at work, someone says, "Don't you get sick, too!"  I told her I was just getting over it.  I was on the mend.  She was surprised because apparently a whole bunch of people who were getting colds were all losing their voices and stuff.  I'm blessed.   

Okay, I really have to go, now.  Merry Christmas.  Remember Christ.  #HeIsTheGift.
OH, yes, and I also participated in this:  I broke the record for the world's largest live nativity with the most people.  Check it Out.

The link in case the video doesn't work:

Monday, December 8, 2014

"He loves you today."

Happy Thanksgiving!  I'm still here.  I'm still blogging. 
I'm grateful for a wonderful, busy, lively life filled with family, church, work, and love. 
Oh, and play.  I never forget that.  
Today I read this quote:

I am grateful for the knowledge that my Heavenly Father does love me.  He loves me today, he loved me yesterday, and he will love me when I mess up again, tomorrow.  And even though I mess up, he loves me enough that he sent his only son, Jesus Christ, to be my savior, to be my Lord, to redeem me from my sins and lift me from my sorrows, to ease my shoulders from the burdens of life.  The same is true for you. 

Hold to the Lord when you are in your low places, because he loves you.  Christ has been there, where you are.  He knows how to lift you up, how to succor you, how to be the friend when you feel alone, overwhelmed and in despair.   He knows how to help you find value and purpose when you feel life is meaningless.  He knows how to help you come closer to your Father in Heaven.  He knows how to love you perfectly, wholly.  And through both the joyful and trying times, as you hold on to him, you will see the light and feel the joy in this beautiful mess of life, and know His love for you.  You are a child of The Divine.